Venting

This pain makes me sick in my stomach, makes me wanna throw up and takes all my hunger away. This is how I feel every time I remember you.

I thought I saw you today, once again, I stopped breathing and my heart started racing, beating as fast as if the world was about to end. Such nonsense... My world ended quite some time ago... And I seriously need to start sleeping properly (or just sleep at all) then maybe I'd stop seeing you everywhere. Also I know... I know despite how many tears I cry the past won't change, but my eyes have stopped obeying me. So just blame on them my tear-stained face, not me.