Shuffling through our memories

Music player on shuffle, a songs ends, another begins. Oh no. Not this one. It's from your favorite singer. Crap...

And I force myself to listen to the song playing, I could simply skip the song, but no. It hurts. I fight through the pain. As the music fills my ears it's like my vision dissipates from reality and all I see is your face, everything else is gone but that memory of your facial traits. Just like our memories together, your face is getting blurrier by the day. It bothers me how our happy days now seem so long ago it's hard to remember. Sometimes I find myself wondering if it was all just a dream, it just doesn't seem real anymore. What a cruel ending for such a passionate love... Meanwhile the song is nearing it's end, somehow it doesn't hurt as much anymore. I think I'll put it on repeat for a bit. Torture myself. Maybe not torture, maybe... Maybe I just want to close my eyes and escape to those far away memories, relive those times, forget the present. Sadly it will all be over when I open my eyes, if only my dreams of you were pleasant like this. But they're not. They're nightmares. I open my eyes. Change the song. It's over. It's time for a new soundtrack in my life.