Self-destructive behaviour

A smoke to keep me busy. A dozen to fight the nerves.

A drink to make me social. A few to make me forget.

A joint to lighten my head. A couple to get me relaxed.

And all together they make life a little easier to endure.

"I feel something so right

Doing the wrong thing

I feel something so wrong

Doing the right thing

I couldn't lie, couldn't lie, couldn't lie

Everything that kills me makes me feel alive"

- in "Counting Stars" by  One Republic