Times have changed. I used to be on you now I'm over you. But even now you hold a special place in my heart. One no one can ever take away from you. My first love, my first real love. And also the only person I've ever loved. Guess a part of me will always be crazy about you. Controlling the itch on my fingers to touch you whenever we cross paths. You'll have to settle for the smile tugged between my lips in the far corner of my mouth. A ghost of the giant one that would escape me every time my eyes would find you, rebelliously breaking free from my otherwise string of consciously calculated movements. Powerful, such that even when I tried I could never properly repress it. It was my dead giveaway. My body saying I love you without any words or consent necessary. And you knew it. Knew that as long as I held that smile you would be holding of my heart. This other smile though, it's simply a tiny homage to the good memories and the warmth you once made me feel inside. It's not an "hello" or a "goodbye" just a "I'll see you around".
"Change is inevitable
Why hold on to what you have to let go of?
(...)
Loving you was nice
But it's a new day, a new season
I've been sad inside
And he could see it, picked up your pieces
(...)
Shame on me for changing
No, No, No,
Shame on you for staying the same"
- in "Spotless Mind" by Jhené Aiko
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