Somebody that I used to know

"(...) We'll drift apart, until one day we'll meet in line at the grocery store and say polite hellos and pretend like we didn't once know everything there was to know about each other."

- Amy Raudenfeld in "Faking it"

Agere, non loqui

Our life is defined by choices. Some we make, others are made for us. We often look at our decisions as right or wrong when in reality no such thing exists. A seemingly wise decision can come crashing down as fast as an apparently bad one can turn into something wonderful. So the way I see it, life's about trying to make the most out of every situation regardless. And how we do it, that's what truly defines us.

Step into my soul

"But my dreams they aren't as empty

As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely

My love is vengeance

That's never free

No one knows what its like

To feel these feelings

Like i do, and i blame you!

No one bites back as hard

On their anger

None of my pain and woe

Can show through"

- in "Behind Blue Eyes" by Limp Bizkit

"Don't think I can make it"

"Everything is alright, everything's in your mind

Life is what you make it, life is what you make it

And anything can happen, anything can happen

But you just gotta get past it, you just gotta laugh at it

And anything can happen, you fall down get back up

And you better believe that nothing holding me back

So everything is alright, everything is alright

Everything is alright, promise I'll be

Promise you'll be, promise we'll be alright"

- in "Promises" by Jhené Aiko

But I'm not...

Buuuurn

Those who play with fire are bound to get burnt. I hope you do.

Just wait

"We lose faith in things unseen, unsure of what to believe,

Just dying to be loved when love's right in front of us.

We give up on our hopes and dreams, and let doubt take everything.

The door will open when we realize we don't hold the key!"

- in "No ordinary love" by Memphis May Fire

Arigatou ne

"If you find someone who makes you smile,

Who checks up on you to see if you’re okay,

Who watches out for you and wants the very best for you,

Don’t let them go.

Keep them close and don’t take them for granted.

People like them are hard to find."

- Unknown

Chasing our ideal self

"Maybe what I really wanted was to prove I could do things right. 

So when I looked in the mirror, I’d see someone worth while."

- Mulan 

Psychic metamorphosis

It's funny how fast our life can change. We get used to certain things, start operating on different gears. It's funny how we lose our independence so fast, create an addiction to something we never knew before. How we once felt so at peace with our loneliness only to now feel it unbearable. How indifference and coldness turn into a stream of untamed emotions. In the mist of it all we're still us yet never again the same...

Looking from afar

Every time I see a happy couple I'm left thinking there might still be some hope left for me... 

But what is this I feel? Envy...?

2.30 pm

Sitting in the cold of the night. The sky's pitch black, it's already 2.30 pm and too cold to be wearing a t-shirt outside. I like it but I'm shaking. It hurts but I don't go away. Am I even hurting because of this? We've all got our own ways of inflicting pain to ourselves, this is one of mine. And the pain tastes different when we believe we deserve it. We learn to cherish it... One pain can mask another, that's what I'm doing. After a while I get the shaking under control. It's worse then, it means I'm back at square one. And not even the stars came to see me tonight... I can't hide my disappointment. I'm feeling kinda lost tonight avoiding to dwell on it. Maybe the day will bring me the guidance I seek... Oh but I hate it so...

"Come across you lost and broken

You're coming to but you're slow in waking 

You start to shake.

You still haven't spoken, what happened

They're coming back and you just dont know when

You want to cry but there's nothing comin'

They're gonna push until you give in, say when"

- in "Say When" by The Fray

Upon a star

You realize how deep in you are when you see a shooting star and use your wish for someone else's benefit. That just says it all.

"I know you, I walked with you once upon a dream

I know you, that look in your eyes is so familiar a gleam

And I know it's true that visions are seldom all they seem

But if I know you, I know what you'll do

You'll love me at once, the way you did once upon a dream"

- in "Once Upon a Dream" by Lana Del Rey

Greetings from my scumbag brain

Hello, this is your brain, I just wanted to let you know that I've organized a flash mob of sadness and general depressive feelings starting immediately and without any apparent reason behind it. Also feel free to rip out your heart when you decide you can't take anymore. Just please remember to avoid brain damage and to keep a smile on your face through it all. Have a nice day. : )