But I'm not Alice

 I am... Happy. And by saying so little I'm saying so much. Even if happiness belongs in the fleeting moments of a conscious dream. Never meant to last, always running scarce, always late like a rabbit with a pocket watch. And it makes sense so we don't question it, happiness resides in wonderland after all. So for those of us who have yet to fall down the rabbit hole we're destined to only catch glances of it every once in a while, living in the sober monochromatic reality of the surface world. But we, the dreamers, will always find hope in the delirious concepts of a hatter who lost his mind to madness or a floating cat with the most wicked of grins. So come away with me, wonderland is as close as you can perceive it to be...

Mirror, mirror

"Mirror, tell me something,

Tell me who's the loneliest of all?

Fear of what's inside of me,

Tell me can a heart be turned to stone?

Mirror, mirror, what's behind you?

Save me from the things I see!

I can keep it from the world,

Why won't you let me hide from me?"

- in "Mirror Mirror" by Jeff Williams ft. Casey Lee Williams

"All we need is faith..."

"Don't limit yourself. Many people limit themselves to what they think they can do. You can go as far as your mind lets you. What you believe, remember, you can achieve."

- Mary Kay Ash

Hedonism

"I hope you're feeling happy now

I see you feel no pain at all it seems

I wonder what you're doing now?

I wonder if you think of me at all

Do you still play the same moves now?

Or are those special moods for someone else?

I hope you're feeling happy now

Just because you feel good

It doesn't make you right, oh no

Just because you feel good

Still want you here tonight

Does laughter still discover you?

I see through all those smiles

That look so right

Do you still have the same friends now?

To smoke away your problems and your life

How do you remember me?

The one that made you laugh until you cried

I hope you're feeling happy now"

- in "Hedonism" by Skunk Anansie

Let's be miserable together?

 

Sometimes all it takes is a friend who understands how you feel and what you're going through... 

Oh! And that brings alcohol!

Just let go you'll be fine

"Is it real or am I going insane?

Am I ever gonna change my ways?

Isolated, separated, sick of the mess I created,

The pressure keeps rising,

When the truth is what I'm fighting,

We march out of the darkness,

We revel in the flames,

The mission is accomplished,

We're ready for the change,

And the only thing that will set us free is living through the pain,

And the only thing that I'll guarantee, we'll never be the same"

- in "March Out of The Darkness" by Papa Roach

Thought I was over this, over you

I hate you. I hate that you still have this power over me. I don't want it! I don't want to get pale, all the blood drained from my face and almost have an heart attack at the sight of you. I can't even catch my breath, I might just be hyperventilating and my feet never walked any faster. Almost flying to get me away from you, I can't keep my hands still, running them incessantly through my hair while holding back the tears until I can't anymore. Arriving home I'm stripped of all my strength, my back hits the nearest wall and I let myself slide down to the floor. Now the tears run free, drawing soft patterns over my cheeks, all emotions unleashed. Tell me, where did I go wrong? Or maybe, was there anything I actually did right? I guess I was probably asking for it though, I can't lie and say I didn't let my thoughts drift to you earlier today... So perhaps I brought this upon myself... At least in the mist of my misery I can be glad my mask never broke. People standing a feet away from me and I was still able to hide my frantic state of mind, they didn't even notice I had been crying. Isn't that depressing? And at last, the numbness settles upon me. Took you long enough, my old friend, but here you go, have me whole...

Can't break the silence, It's breaking me

"All my fears, Turn to rage

And I'm alone now,

Me and all I stood for,

We're wandering now,

All in parts and pieces, swim lonely,

Find your own way out"

- in "Your Star" by Evanescence

The Shadow Archetype

As the train nears the tunnel I let my eyes drift to the window on my right side. Light suddenly fades away and I'm left gazing at my own reflection. That is, until I see him. He's sitting on the other side of the corridor in the seat further away from the window and facing the same direction as me. In an instant, just as the darkness has completely taken over the air around us, I realize it would only take me about three seconds to reach him. And then, faster than I could process, I'm standing right by him. In a swift motion I wrap my fingers between his grayish locks and smash his skull into the metal armrest of the seat across from him. Blood spills in every possible direction, and just to make sure, I yank his head back just to lower it right after, even more forcefully than before. The force of impact is such that it sends him back just to lay numbly on the ground, his mouth open in a silent scream. My expressionless traits allow for a sly grin to slip by and linger in triumph. Light reclaims it's reign over the carriage, so suddenly it's almost blinding. I close my eyes in reaction before slowly opening them again.I blink once, then twice. My vision focuses back, I'm in my seat. Glancing to the left there he is, peacefully reading the newspaper. The tunnel is over, the darkness returned to hiding. The day goes on.

After the storm

"Some might say that sunshine follows thunder

Go and tell it to the man who cannot shine

Some might say that we should never ponder

On our thoughts today, 'cos they will sway over time

(...)

Some might say they don't believe in Heaven

Go and tell it to the man who lives in hell

Some might say, you get what you've been given

If you don't get yours, I won't get mine as well

Some might say, we will find a brighter day

Some might say, we will find a brighter day"

- in "Some Might Say" by Oasis

Hypovolemic

"Through the darkest of nights, with no hope for a light

I bled for you

When you were broken, alone and you needed me most

I bled for you

So, please give me one good reason

I should keep believing in a goddamn thing

When this thing inside of me, I’ve never seen

It’s telling me to give up, move on and forget my life

But in the end you’ll see

This is the difference between you and me

I’ve broken my bones

Sat there and listened for you

I keep on falling

And on the way down I hope you’ll catch me soon

But you’re not caring"

- in "Dance of the Dead" by Secrets

Unholy Confessions

"Some things I had to say you didn't want to hear

So I wrote it all down

Just to relive the fear

I've been meaning to tell you

You really got the best of me

Hell on earth is all you're worth"

- in "Irreversible" by Nightmares

Volare

"My mind is littered with photos of you and I'm burning them one by one.

You're just another bitter face and in your heartless fucking book.

I gave you everything and that's exactly what you took.

GET HER OUT OF MY HEAD.

And finally, I'm free to fly without you here by my side.

Now that these restraints have lifted, it feels like the weight has shifted.

Finally, I'm free to soar without you here to block the door

and I can finally fly.

I'm bruised and broken, damaged goods, and severely misunderstood.

It took this long to realize that this too shall pass and I'll learn to live again."

- in "The Wild" by Secrets

We are masochistic forms of disaster

"Here are the last words that I scream at you

It's hard to act like I care

But I do

I'm waiting around to feel your heart again

But you never cared enough to let me in

Everyone said that we were meant to be

But now I'm awake and I can see

You just wanna crucify me

Cause everyone needs a hand to hold down"

- in "Hands of the Ripper" by Nightmares